I smelt winter in the air

How Scary.

and I should have wished for an ID that says im 21 on my birthday so I could be at that magazine release party right now =(

I was..

Seventeen in this picture I think.. Jose just sent this to me via the phone.

I was bored in art history class today so I went thru all of my text messages on my phone, it almost felt like reading a diary.

sometimes reading old diaries just hurts.

hahaha

We can all laugh about this now, but at the time I was SAD.

....

holy fuck I hate myself.

I have been crying a lot this past week... I just can't stop it..its like I can't control myself..plus I've been sick and busy with school related shit.. I used to always talk to my mom..but for some reason I felt like I should not bother her..
I talked to an old friend on the phone for a long time.. we used to see each other everyday.. he told me I was too depressing.. that makes him sad sometimes...which sucks.. that's why I don't talk to people about my shit anymore..

I love you people.. I dont want you guys to have a crying friend. That is fucking lame.

I'm sorry =(